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Maddening Drive

Posted in Heartbreak, Love, Poem with tags , , , on August 1, 2015 by shatteredbutterfly

– Part II –

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Which callous villain has taken up this game?
Gathered powers from a witch without any shame
A magic that has been conjured from the depths of hell
No escape in sight, she’s been compelled

Like a hook sunk deep, she’s been sired
The situation so dangerous, it’s dire
Uncontrollable desire
like an unquenchable fire

Whenever within her sire’s proximity
feelings rise to the surface
Inescapable misery

Trying to ignore it
trying to forget
The memory that their lips had ever met
But when a spell binds you in the same vicinity
Burning electricity does not to flee

Desire left cold, the strings that entwine
Your heart are fray
I struggle, tug, and pull harder
Yet you go further astray

Sparks circled the air and burst into fireflies
Continuous flashing, burning inside
Sets my emotions into a haze
Erupting a fire ablaze

Now these delusions are incinerated
An abyss I’ve merely created
Days pass, you’ve faded
becoming colder
Continuously jaded

Uncertain if this current runs through you as well
But your dark brown eyes won’t ever tell

Walls made of stone cannot be penetrated
And still his heart remains unpersuaded
Infatuation gone
unreciprocated

Call it maddening
Crazed
psychotic, deranged

The current washes in this maddening drive
Drowning through these rough waves
A rescue must be
contrived

– Victoria Josephine 2015 –

Part I

Not Where I Make You Stay

Posted in Heartbreak, Love, Poem with tags , , , , , , , on October 19, 2014 by shatteredbutterfly

This terror creeps inside of my being
that one day you’ll be
soaring above, over head

I might snatch you up and imprison
your glass, frail walls

Creating a concave fist
with my eager hands

Not wanting to set loose
what I’ve captured
For it rarely passes by

With these
clutched fingers
secured tightly

the sheer force would cause
a crack in the glass
spreading
until it shatters

Causing you
to cease to exist
let alone
ever flourish

There’s just no way
I could let that ever happen

That delicate bird I call love
must pass on by

I cannot strive towards it
It must land softly
on my shoulder, whistling into my ear

Of how this is their favourite
place to be

Because you’ve made a decision
you belong
not where I make you stay

Change of Season

Posted in Heartbreak, Poem, Unrequited love with tags , , on October 15, 2014 by shatteredbutterfly

Do not pretend
it hasn’t been there
all along

Hiding beneath
forced smiles
silent laughs
glancing in another direction
unable to face it head on

Is this really doing
anyone a favour

Is it because
we’re too proud
to admit to ourselves
of our loneliness

It wouldn’t be fair
to keep things as they are

It’s up to me
to gather these strings
and finally cut them loose

I wish you would stop fooling yourself

Because there’s much worse things
than being alone
and one of them
is lying to yourself

day after day

Is it naive of me
to let you go
when your love comes so effortlessly

I can’t keep
hiding
in and out of hearts
where I don’t belong

Sometimes
all it takes to discover
what is right
is finding out what is wrong

Into the Background

Posted in Art, Heartbreak, Poem, Unrequited love with tags , , , , on May 18, 2014 by shatteredbutterfly

I used to have dreams were you were the lead role and they would have a lasting impact on my day. When my mind would wander, it attach itself to what it might feel like to be around you again. In waking life your aura had such a pulsing vibration, you would glide into rooms as though you were partly awake and half dreaming.

Now when you slip into my dreams , you are no longer a main character and you hide away into the background, playing the role of a stranger. Your face is not as vivid as it once was, and you have no real impression. I would mistake you for someone else but your hair gives it away

My Only Wager

Posted in Heartbreak, Love, Poem with tags , , , , on February 14, 2014 by shatteredbutterfly

I had wished to prove
and be there to remove
the curtains that would cloud
your mind when confidence could not be found
to light a flame in your darkest cave
help settle thoughts that would not behave

I had wished to share
a piece of sunshine to repair
blue eyes hidden by rain
a little something to subdue your pain
and I would place it in your pocket, in your hand
no heavier than a grain of sand
to believe in you when you’re in doubt
and be the clarity when words run out

I had to wished to amend
wounds pierced by arrows from the darkness that descend
from self loathing and defeat
make you realize you’re not hollow, you are nothing but complete

You would have been my only wager
Though I saw very few odds in your favour
I had wished to quell your afflicted mind
and make sure you know
you’re always in the back of mine

I was supposed to catch you off that cliff
To be the first one to forgive

The Letters We Once Wrote

Posted in Heartbreak, Love, Poem, Uncategorized with tags , , , on February 28, 2013 by shatteredbutterfly

Remember how we’d secretly slip
a tightly crafted note, wrapped like a present
on my desk, and into my hands I held
This secret letter, to know what’s inside, I felt compelled

I would run off into
the girls washroom
Excitement ran through
My mind 
As I opened up your note
Anticipating what you wrote

We were to meet
Behind the gates, outside the hockey rink
Both of us agreed
we would act on count of three

Dead of winter, after school
The air was dry and cool
Couldn’t stand anymore, the countdown we waited for
Your lips as cold as ice, it was quick but nice

A first kiss in winter
So sweet
Only once more
To repeat

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