Archive for August, 2011

The Cosmic Convergence of Dualities

Posted in Uncategorized on August 23, 2011 by shatteredbutterfly


Crash into me at full speed
We can collide

Yesterday I was working at the mall, a rare occasion where we try to get face to face contact with potential clients. Me and my co-worker were sitting, Let’s call her C, and I noticed she was in a dramatically different mood than the day before.

I look at her and say,
“Are you okay, C? What’s wrong?”
C – (blank stare)
“Is it what we talked about yesterday?”
C “Why does life have to be so hard?”

She looked like she was about to cry.
I replied, ” I think it’s to challenge us. If life wasn’t hard, maybe it wouldn’t be worth it”

C – “You think so?”

Well, yes I do think so. Life is never easy, no matter what path you’re on.
Because it comes down to this. We are all human, and we all feel. We become vulnerable at times, especially when it comes to relationships, which is what this life is largely about.
Is it any coincidence that I had a hard time with my family that night?

So much to the point where I wonder if it’s worth it…. just …. living.
It’s not easy when you have a whole group of people telling you how you should live, telling you to make more money… have different beliefs even.

Every time I feel I’m finding my way, I hit the stone cold floor of this reality I just don’t know how to manage getting up again. And I don’t think my family will ever understand where I’m coming from.

I’m trying to stay positive. There is a new person in my life who never ceases to make me smile. They are so upbeat it’s contagious. And I think they understand me, at least a little bit. I’m obviously not going to go into conspiracies with him, because it might scare him away. No, that’s what I’m into, and I think even I should take a break from a lot of it.

So I’m going to keep my chin up. Yes, C, life is what it is, but it’s up to us to decide what kind of attitude we’re going to have toward it. And it’s not easy for me when there are many things in my life to have me dragged down, but I’ll try my best.

Shattered Butterfly xoxo

My Muse

Posted in Uncategorized on August 15, 2011 by shatteredbutterfly

You know it’s the same God we believe in?
And all our rivers lead to one sea
– Yahel  (Beyond)

Follow me, follow me yeah let’s go
To the sand, to the sand, the purest sand
Into the sea, into the sea yeah let’s go

Out beyond the water’s edge
Far out past the coral bench
Underneath the diamond dancing lights
Chase the world from far below
Silence sleeping in the glow
Drifting down into the endless night

Leaving reason far behind
Nothing here is cruel or kind
Only your desire to set me free
Let us lie here all alone
Worn away like river stone
Let us be the sirens of the sea
I … can not … resist … your call

Oceanlab (Sirens of the Sea)

All the creatures, on the beaches
Makin’ waves in the motion picture
RHCP (21st Century)

Your eyes speak to me
They tell me be calm
They tell me be strong

Swimming out so deep
Now I can’t breathe
And it’s exactly where I belong

Cause it feels like a ride of a lifetime
And nothing’s gonna save us now
Let the waves come crashing down

Cause it feels like I’m right for the first time
And everytime I take you in
I feel my heart skip a beat again

I am drowning in your love 

Love
It’s taking over
There is no in between till I find me some cover

The tide is coming, I don’t know if I can take it
I lose my focus, lose my focus
With every breath I feel my inhibition breaking
I can’t control it, no no no…
– Armin van Buuren feat. Laura V– Drowning

Send the wind out, I hear his voice now, at the bottom of the blue.
I’ll get my coat, it’ll be the second coming outside, when I return with you.

I’m a ship like you. One sail. One sea.
You and Me.
And I left my soul next to the shore.
One sail. One sea.
Meg & Dia (One Sail)

The world I love
The tears I drop
To be part of
The wave can’t stop
Ever wonder if it’s all for you
RHCP (Can’t Stop)

Deep inside of a parallel universe
It’s getting harder and harder
To tell what came first

Under water where thoughts can breathe Easily

Far away you were made in a sea
Just like me

[Chorus:]
Christ I’m a sidewinder I’m a
California King
I swear it’s everywhere
It’s everything

Staring straight up into the sky
Oh my my a solar system that fits
In your eye Microcosm

You could die but your never dead spider web
Take a look at the stars in
Your head fields of space kid

[Chorus x 2]

Psychic changes are born in your heart
Entertain
A nervous breakthrough that makes us the same
Bless your heart girl

Kill the pressure it’s raining on
Salty Cheeks
When you hear the beloved song
I am with you
RHCP (Parallel Universe)

Easily let’s get caught in a wave
Easily we won’t get caught in a cage
RHCP (Easily)

I love the quiet of the nighttime
When the sun is drowned in the deathly sea
I can feel my heart beating as I speed from
The sense of time catching up with me
The sky’s set out like a pathway
But who decides which route we take

Floating neither up or down
I wonder when I’ll hit the ground
Will the earth beneath my body shake
And cast your sleeping hearts awake
Could it tremble stars from moonlit skies
Could it drag a tear from your cold eyes
I live on the right side, I sleep in the left
That’s why everything’s got to be love or death
White Lies (Death)

He catches raindrops from his window
It reminds him of how we fall
From the stars back to our cities
Where we’ve never felt so small
Raindrops from his window
Making puddles in his hands
He sees how quick the water’s rising
As another raindrop lands
White Lies (From the Stars)

You were my conscience
so solid now you’re like water
We started drowning
not like we’d sink any further
But I let my heart go
it’s somewhere down at the bottom
But I’ll get a new one.
come back for the hope that you’ve stolen

– Paramore (Monster)

Learn to drown before you learn to swim.

Bayside (Boy)


What’s all this talk of a notion?
I’d rather drink from the ocean
what did you mean when you said no?
I only want what is best for you
but I won’t ever let you drown
no I won’t ever let you down

cause I am my enemy
the water’s up to the knee
I never wanted nothin’ from you
yes I do, yes I do
my engine’s runnin’ on dry
my head’s so fucked up inside
shut up
I know
I said so
there is no way to recover
you told me there is no other
the surface is getting hotter
I’ll shove your head under water
Breaking Benjamin (Water)

Beneath this wave
I just can’t take your breath away
Breaking Benjamin (Next To Nothing)

What did you say
Willing to drown in a tidal wave
Breaking Benjamin (Sugarcoat)

And I float upon a shallow bay
lift me up until the ground gives way
Breaking Benjamin (Shallow Bay)

Some say the end is near.
Some say we’ll see Armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will.
I sure could use a vacation from this

Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of freaks

Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time. Any fucking day.
Learn to swim, I’ll see you down in Arizona Bay.

Cause I’m praying for rain
And I’m praying for tidal waves
I wanna see the ground give way.
I wanna watch it all go down.
Mom, please flush it all away.
Tool (Aenima)

I’m sweating,
and breathing
and staring and thinking
and sinking
deeper.
It’s almost like I’m swimming.

The sun is burning hot again
on the hunter
and the fisherman,
and I’m trying to remember when,
but it makes me dizzy.

Seems like I’ve been here before.
Seems so familiar.
Seems like I’m slipping
into a dream within a dream.
Tool (Sweating)
 

Life is a waterfall
we’re one in the river
and one again after the fall
swimming through the void
we hear the word
we lose ourselves
but we find it all….

cause we are the ones that want to play
always want to go
but you never want to stay
and we are the ones that want to choose
always want to play
but you never want to lose

aerials, in the sky
when you lose small mind
you free your life

life is a waterfall
we drink from the river
then we turn around and put up our walls
swimming through the void
we hear the word
we lose ourselves
but we find it all…
System of a Down (Aerials)

gone under two times.
I’ve been struck dumb by a voice that
speaks from deep
beneath the cold black water.
It’s twice as clear as heaven,
and twice as loud as reason.
It’s deep and rich like silt on a riverbed
and just as undisturbing.
the currents mouth below me opens up around me.
suggests and beckons all while swallowing.
It surrounds and drowns and sweeps me away.

under for the third time.
I’ve been baptized by your voice.
it screams from deep beneath the endless water.
and it’s half as high as heaven
and half as clear as reason.
it’s cold and and black like silt on the riverbed.
Tool (Undertow)

I saw the queen
Swam out below her star on sea beneath
Though I lifted up my hands to her
She never lifted me

Oh, something’s missing in me
I felt it deep within me
As lovers left me to bleed alone
Flyleaf (Missing)

Evil fell from your pretty mouth
Wrapped in your classic voice
Angelic in your syntax
Demonic in your motive
Your pretty eyes don’t know that
The water flowing from this well isn’t fresh
Demolish all that sets you up against your rising up
Confessing all that’s broken and watch the healing come
Spread out your open hands
Admit you’ve held them shut
Turn all the way around
Be swept away by this
Flyleaf (Swept Away)